Foolish!!

Now I realized how foolish I can be..

If for an instant you know that by spending lots of time together, a guy and a girl can be together after quite some time, but you never really noticed..sigh~ should have seen it coming since it happened before, not only to anyone else, but to me as well..

Thinking that there would be nothing coming out of that "normal" relationship was just a thought to make you feel better, to avoid clash of opinions, to keep the trust you've built all along. Anyway, many might not agree, but can anyone justify my opinion is wrong? If yes, please do, I'd like to listen and read your thoughts as well.

Being thruthful is one thing, but to control your feeling towards other is another thing. Shit happens all the time, and sometimes you just have to accept it. Anyway, keep this to yourself, im not pin pointing anyone, just having this sense of disorder coming thru my UNPEACEFUL mind at the moment.

But yeah, I still like to hear from others what u need to say about it. Am i being negative?? Maybe.. But prove me wrong, just so that I can sit back and think again.

~reFfz~

Insight

I miss you so much

Jessie J: Nobody's Perfect

When I'm nervous I have this thing yeah I talk too much
Sometimes I just can't shut the hell up
It's like I need to tell someone anyone who'll listen
And that's where I seem to fuck up, yeah
I forget about the consequences, for a minute there I lose my senses
And in the heat of the moment my mouth's starts going the words start flowing

But I never meant to hurt you, I know it's time that i learnt to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learnt , I hate that I let you down and I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting yeah
And I hate that I made you think that the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
Cause nobody's perfect, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, nobodys perfect


If i could turn back the hands of time
I swear I never would have crossed that line
I should of kept it between us but Jessie went and told the whole world how she's feeling and oh
So I sit and I realise with these tears falling from my eyes
I gotta change if I wanna keep you forever
Promise that I'm gonna try

But I never meant to hurt you, i know it's time that i learn to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learnt and I hate that I let you down and I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting yeah
And I hate that I made you think that the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
Cause nobody's perfect, no, no, no, no, no, no, no,nobody's perfect


Im Not a saint no not at all, but what I did it wasn't cool
But I swear that I'll never do that again to you
I'm not a saint, no not at all, but what I did it wasn't cool
but i swear that ill never do that again to you.
I hate that I let you down, and I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting yeah
And I hate that I made you think that that the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
Cause nobody's perfect, no,
nobody's perfect

1,2,3...

Gud morning everyone.. I'm wishing you good morning while im sure most of you are still sleeping now..as for me, im stuck with my own thought and cannot go to sleep~fufufufuuu~

It's been really long since a real post from me in my blog.. Guess im no longer attached to blogging (as if I ever did)..LoL~ Anyway, been really busy with work mostly..talking bout work, i've been working for about 8 months already now..yeah, hard to believe it huh??me too..hoho

To tell the truth, I have lots going on in life for the past months..really, it's hard to digest what's really happening around me now..everything comes into picture with not so clear display of what it really is..confusing??yup, it confused me as well..with all the problems happening in my personal life involving friendships, work related, personal- all of them happened at almost the same time.. Thank god Im not going through it myself..thanks Hunny for always being there 4 me..

Anyhow, I guess its better to let things flow by itself..im done trying..but doesnt mean i am letting go, just that let it be natural laaaa....sooner or later, hopefully things around me will get better..hopefully..living in KL have been quite an experience..well, most of my time here, I was alone..totally ALONE!!damn it..it came across my mind many times already, of going back to my hometown..at least i'd feel at home..but wen i think about it again, wud i be happy???ermm, dats one subjective question...many stuff to relate to..arrgghhh~~darn it!

Sooner or later, i'll return home to KK, but not at the moment i guess..now have to focus with what i have in hand..it's tough, but great!!whatever it is, if it wasnt for my special someone, I couldn't have take it all..thanks 2 u HunnY!!! :)

not in the mood to write anything else!!!!

im outta here!!

~reFfz~

Rest of My Life- Bruno Mars

Everyday I Wake Up Next To An Angel
More Beautiful Than Words Could Say
They Said It Wouldnt Work But What Did They Know?
Cause Years Passed And We're Still Here Today
Never In My Dreams Did I Think That This Would Happen To Me

As I Stand Here Before My Woman
I Cant Fight Back The Tears In My Eyes
Oh How Could I Be So Lucky
I Mustve Done Something Right
And I Promise To Love Her For The Rest Of My Life

Seems Like Yesterday When She First Said Hello
Funny How Time Flys By When You're In Love
It Took Us A Lifetime To Find Each Other
It Was Worth The Wait Cause I Finally Found The One
Never In My Dreams Did I Think That This Would Happen To Me

As I Stand Here Before My Woman
I Cant Fight Back The Tears In My Eyes
Oh How Could I Be So Lucky
I Mustve Done Something Right
And I Promise To Love Her For The Rest Of My Life

babbling mouth!!

yup..yup..i'm d one about to babble here..so u guys who don't like to listen,please close ur windows tab now..hahaha~

been 6 and a half months since I last started wth my work..wow!!!i lasted here 6 months!!!more than i ever thought i would have..hahaa~

Everything seems ok, but getting busier nowadays..i think my white hair becoming more and more now..huhuhu~ have to dye it black some more.. :(

Since raya, i went back to KK 3 times already, n that includes raya.. went back just for a while during raya time..huhuhu~n went to Taiwan for the company trip..damn hard to find food that I can actually eat there..haha..ended up stuffing seafood into my stomach most of d time!!

Den, my 2nd trip back home is for an interview.. got a call from JKR for interview, but never put up any hope though..all d guys going for d interview have experience of more than 4 years at least..n my experience at dat time was a mere 4 months..hahaha~ goodbye JKR!!LoL~

Lastly, my final trip back was for some personal reason..it wasn't good..but it was also d best to me..ermm,confusing??im confused too..hahaha~in the end,i felt just happy.. :) thank God...

Though for my work, i still spend 6 full days working with day off on Sunday..ermm..and owh, did ever mentioned, my salary was deducted???wakakakakaka~i was transfer to another project, n salary is reduced..gooddddddd!!!!!!!!!!just what i expect!!!~sarcastic mode~ =.='

whatever it is, my contract is long expired..so i can leave anytime..but i owe the company big time, n love working here, with all the challenges and new stuff i get to learn..well,its normal to suffer in the frst place i guess..just need to move on with it and just prove my worth here.. if i worth any la..hahahah~

k la,enuff babble,time for bed..nyte eberibodi..thx for ur time reading dis bullsht!!!hahaa~

~reFfz~

First Post since Long Missing~

If everything in life doesn't go right, turn left!!