keeping it REAL!!

Yup..from my last post,lots of things i went through..

Firstly, I GRADUATED!!!!!hehe~ yup, couldn't believe it myself..dat few seconds where I enter the stage and my name was called upon to take the scroll..i keep playing dat moment in my head..i guess dat's my parent proudest moment of me..huhu~ Thx Mum n Dad, for making it possible for me..oyeahh, n thx to ALL PEOPLE i encounter all this time.. =) I'll upload pics in d future..

I met lots of my old colleagues..maybe all of them, but didn't have enough time to reminisce the old times or even to talk about their current life,what's gong on and all..hmm.. maybe we should have a reunion kan?? I even meet with my besties in USM, got to spend some time with them.. guess,won't be missing them for a while (crossing fingers)..LOL~~~

But,most important thing is dat I got to spend few days with my family.. they came all the way from Sabah for my graduation (n shopping)..hehe..although it's just a few days, it meant a lot..hehe..been so long since i met them (pdhal nda smpi setahun pun)... and btw, Thx for d "present" Dad!!!

also, got to meet up with my friend i think i never spoke 2 in person..haha..btul ba kn???LoL!!

getting close only from facebook i think..not really close, but ok la..bole la berkurapak sama2..

Anyway, then now m back to work again..lots of stuff to deal with..my one week off means i got o

one week of idling work waiting for me to finish!!!huhuU~please get us some new engineers to help me out!!!huhuhuu...many have told me to return to KK and work there..aiihh..i wish i can..but now im just waiting for the right time..i wanted to, but i still have stuffs to think of.. neway, hopefully i'll get used to the working life here then i'll return back to KK peacefully..

ermm,dats all la for now..have to settle some stuff first then I can leave d office..hehe..gtg finish my work and then leave for the bazaar!!-out-

~reFfz~

AKU BANGGA AKU ORG SABAH!!

ermm... aku mau post dlm bahasa aku la pulak..

baru2 ni, byk bnda dlm kepala otak aku..terlmpau banyak smpi nda tau suda pa mau pikir lagi..hahaha~skrg ni study week suda..means nex week start la suda final exam..means my final days in USM la jugak 2..nda sabar eh mau abis.. rasa2 aku akan rndu ka jugak life d uni ni arh??ermm..God knows...

dalam banyak2 benda mau pkir ni, nasib la ada jugak hiburan bole dibuat ba.. ari 2 pg futsal sma budak2 borneo, like for d last time ni...bes la jugak..rmai ni ba yg pgi..mula2 nda expect jgk begitu rmai, but d more the merrier la ba kn org bilang.. pas futsal 2, pgi lepak2 lg d kedai mamak den sambung karaoke..dei..suda karoke apa lg kn,memang melalak2 ja la di dlm bilik 2 kasi lepas sumaaaaa...hahaha~

d next day,aku pg Perda sma durg c azman,c aimi mau beli barang...balik dr sana, kna bawak lg pg karoke..LAGI!!kering la poket gini ni tau..huahuahuaaaa~ pas2 smlam pulak (d day after la 2 mksud dia), kluar melepak jap jak sma durg2 guys pg shisha..duduk2, crita2, emo2...hahaa~kunun la..

apa pun,bnda2 yg kmi buat smua pun ada la jgk kasi ilang skit serabut utak ni..haha..exam pun mcm teda2 suda pulak rasa dia skrg ni..asal pass cukup la..aiihhh..harap2 la lepas,kalo nda terpaksa lg ulang paper ni semdepan..AKU NAMAU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!huhuhu

apa2 pun,skrg ni kn mimang zaman exam utk IPTA2 d cni ni..so,gud luck la 2 all of u!!! harap2 berkaler2 la keputusan kamu nnt..aku kasi AMIN jak 2..hehehe..

btw,title aku ada jgk la sikit kaitan dia sama post aku ni sbb aku post dlm bhasa feveret aku..LoL~ko nda puas ati??ada aku peduli??hahahahahahaa~ =))

~reFfz~

Get into your senses

Found this while blog-hoping juz now~

At this age, everything is changing. Day by day we don’t notice, but just look back over the past year and you will realize everything has. People you thought were going to be there forever aren’t, and people you never imagined you’d be speaking to are now some of your closest friends. Life makes little sense, and the more we grow the less sense it will make. So make the most of now, before it all changes once again, because in the near future, all of this is only going to be memories.

Love it or Hate it!

Theory of A Deadman
"Not Meant To Be"

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me
And knowing that if I give that to you
I might just disappear

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe
That's theres no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our lives

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

There's still time to turn this around
You could building this up instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I finally see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

Honesty~

Honesty...Simple word with deep meanings.

One should be honest, that is to be true towards yourself and those around you. That's not too much too asked does it? We can describe the uses if this word in many kinds of situation.

Like me, I cheated before during tests and quizzes. But never did it cross my mind to cheat during the exams. Exam to me is where you can actually prove to yourself that you can really do it by yourself. Why can't people be honest to themselves by answering the exam on their own? Anyway, just an example..haha~

In building a relationship, without honesty, the outcome will be disastrous. Honesty in relationship comes in many features:

1. Be honest and tell her/him that you like them. That's a start.

2. Be honest and don't pretend that you like her/him if you don't.

3. Be honest and let them know if you feel insecure.

4. Be honest and don't keep everything inside you, that's what relationships are for; to share.

You can be honest about everything in a relationship. Some relationships ends because of honesty itself, but it's better that way that to keep pretending.

Honesty will take you far in life. People will believe in you and starts giving you their trusts!! That is one way to keep improving in life whether you're a student or an employee.

Being honest doesn't mean that you can easily be stepped on. So, live life honestly people!! :)

~reFfz~

My Best Days are Ahead of ME!!!!

Music really gives inspiration!!

After watching the whole season 8 of American Idol, Danny Gokey has been my favorite!!

Though he didn't went into the final, he still's no 1 to me~ well, everyone can have their opinion right?

Words aside, let's just listen to his song here!!!

My thought~

Just to let you guys know, I'm leaving for Penang this afternoon.. well, just few hours to go..

My CNY holiday in KK has it ups and downs here and there..

Anyway, i would regard this holiday as meaningful.. Hehe~ Why?? I honestly don't know how to explain it..

Sometimes, coincidence can really change everything.. Not everything as in EVERYTHING,

but major part of you just goes with the flow.. I know all of you don't understand what Im saying here.. Im lost of words I guess..

Anyway, the last couple of days here have really make my holiday worthy of me coming back to KK~ hangouts with the guys, family, new friend, old friends.. yeah, all of it!!!! Thanks~

Whatever it is, after today, I will not be as carefree as I have been all this time.. I will be completely busy and caught up with my final year project~ Hopefully it is going to be a FINAL year project rather than FOURTH year project if u get what I mean..

That's all for now, I'll be leaving after packing up just few more things.. See ya'll around~

Refresh!!

I've been missing from this blog for quite some time now.. Been through lots if stuffs lately..

I've been making round trips from Penang to KL twice in a week.. One is for business purpose and the other just for some fun.. Initially, for the fun part we were supposed to go to Pulau Perhentian in Terengganu..Due to some circumstances, it just wasn't meant to be..

I had some wonderful moments, forgetful moments and even some never to mention again moments.. The trip was supposed to be our last (for me and my besties here in Penang), and I was hoping for it to be a trip to be remembered and cherished.. Well, sometimes the last doesn't always mean to be the best.. Enough said, better leave things as it is..

For the second trip, I went there for Site Visit..Along with Mr Shah and Dr Norazura, there were 35 of us from the School of Civil Engineering..it was nice and i felt that our bond has gotten better.~

Enough bout KL..how about me? I finally started my FYP~hehe..though I seriously doubt that I'll be able to finish my report on time..It was just around the dateline that I'll be able to finish all my experiments..so, now while waiting for my specimens to be cure, i'm fully occupied with my report..that means I'M SUPER BUSY!!!!!!!!!!!haha~

that's all for now i guess..till next post oryte~

~reFfz~

I wanna gain weight!!!

berrhrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I always have this same problem each and every year.. People mentioning my physique being so skinny, or better way of express it, i'm too thin for my height.. Of course I realize that fact!!! I've been trying to gain more weight each and every day!!! All i've been doing this whole time is...........

EAT

and

EAT

and

EAT

and

EAT

................................again and again and again and AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!


warrrgggghhhh...but d fact is that my body just couldn't react to all of those stuff I put into my mouth!!so, 2010 will be the year I try other methods to increase my weight and my bady fat content!!!

people, please do pray for my success okay?? I surely don't wanna end up being like diz!!!!



Looking at it is enough to make me laugh..i just cant imagine what will happen when people start to look at me the same way i look at this fella here..

~reFfz~

Lagi2 sakit!!!

Haloo all..

Actually kn, aku mau update lagi further ba psl New Year ari 2.. tapi WTH kan?? punya la history suda 2.. So it's better la aku rasa kalo aku just move on dengan benda lain..
Now here I go again..

Ari ni ari Ahad suda.. kalo ikut kiraan aku, masuk ari keempat suda aku sakit.. enjoy punya enjoy dengan kawan2 aku, balik ja bilik ari 2, tba2 pulak aku sakit the next day.. punya la heran.. aku kena jangkit dengan red eyes c yohan sama batuk c uping.. punya la lama suda aku balik Penang ni, tp skrg baru kena jangkit..adedehhh....

Cakap yg pasal aku enjoy2 ari 2, aku kluar sma durg c Yohanes, Adrian, Hana and Z. Mula2 tu kami pg secret recipe..planning mau dinner konon ba sana, tp sampai2 ja sana trus durg tiba2 mau tgk wayang.. so kami just makan cake ja la sana kan.. macam besa, kalo suda pg secret recipe, nda lain nda bukan, Chocolate Indulgence la aku pg bantai...trus lepas makan cake 2 kami pg la Sunway mau cari tiket konon..smpai2 ja sana kaunter tiket masi bukak lagi, tp wayang suda start..adeh.. pdhal kami tau suda pun mmg teda midnyte show ba 2 arii, saja jak mau cuba nasib ba kan..den d same thing jugak d Megamall Butterworth, tp ni lagi sandi la sbb tutup pintu suda pun panggung dia..

Maka, lepas 2 kami pun putus asa la mau tgk wyg..den balik la pg Parit Buntar utk berkaraoke..karok satu jam ja la..pas2 kami plan mau smbung lagi karok d tempat lain sbb tmpt kami pg tu tutup kul 1am kan..time 2 around 1.15am suda..den kami decide pg Pekaka la,but sblum tu pg mkn la dulu sbb mmg lum dinner..sambil2 mkn 2 kami bershisha la kejap den tepat kul 2 baru kami pg sambung karok...

maka tamat la riwayat kesan degil..sampai sna jak la kami punya adventure malam 2..e2 la yg aku bilang td aku bgn pagi2 trus sakit 2..tp sbb aku rajin, aku pg la jgk kelas kan..mula2 aku igt nda cukup tdur jak, skali melarat pulak merah mata aku 2 smpi bisuk2..ish3..last2 pg klinik dia bg smpi 5 jenis ubat..e2 pun nda masuk lagi utk ubat batuk sama flu..huhuhu~

na, byk suda aku berkurapak..cukup2 la 2 utk skrg, mau smbg tgk Japanese drama ni lagi..ba, sapa2 yg rasa dia free, pg la tgk drama Jipoons ni yg suda aku tgk..best la jgk~

1. Buzzer Beater
2. Rescue
3. Voice
4. Ohitorisama
5. Atashinchi no Danshi

yg ni cuma list yg aku baru tgk start bukak sem ni la..enjoy reading n enjoy watching d recommended drama k?byeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~

~reFfz~

Here I go!!!

Happy New Year 2010 Everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yup,it might be a bit late but it still valid right? I just got back from my holiday in KL with Syed, Yohan and Khairul. So, i'll just update a bit here on what we did kay?

I went there on the 30th of Dec by train from Parit Buntar and reached KL around 0630am the next day. By that time, the rest have checked in at Rescent Hotel not far from KL Monorail Station. It took me more or less 3 hours to find the hotel though while the others having sweet dreams of their own. Huhuhu~

Later in the afternoon, we checked out of Rescent and went to BB area for a place to stay, and that's when the real FUN begun for us!

If I were to write down the whole things here, it would be stressful for you readers and for me as well. So, to make things short, we had a blast!!!!! The countdown was one of the best I ever had, if not the best!! The entire BB area were full of people of different cultures and races with lots of foreigners too. People gathered around in their own group, couples holding hand, policemen on guard, some Chinese artists performing on stage, some pilaks with their own pilak's activities (spraying people around them with snow spray usually used in a party). All these sum up to a GREAT night altogether!! Though we tried our best not to get caught up in the mood and messing up our dressing with all the spraying stuff, you just couldn't resist the temptation surrounding the atmosphere at that particular time.

Anyway, that's just some of it, the rest was simply indescribable. But the night surely didn't end there for us. Anyway, let's just stop there and I'll try to update my post again in the future.

Here are some random pics taken in our hotel room before going for the countdown to 2010!!

Focus on Yohan, not me~

My Chinese blood was boiling intensely

Khai's not around that time,sorry buddy~haha

~reFfz~

aku dan sabah~

BAH!!!

Starting yang bagus kan?? teda apa yg spesel psal aku punya title.. cuma mau post blog aku dalam bhasa melayu, slang(betul ka ni ejaan?) Sabah... macam nda perna buat ba kan sebelum ni...

ok!!!3...2....1......START!!!


sekarang ni aku tgh duduk2 depan laptop, tgh main Yakuza Lords,ala yg app dlm FB 2 ba..gila addicted sda aku sama game 2 ba.. hehehe... baru jak balik dari tgk Alvin and The Chipmunks 2: The Sequel.. Story dia quite ok la jgk.. The Chipmunks vs The Chipettes!!! aku dgr nama group chipmunk betina ni ba kan, punya la aku rasa yg kelucuan yg berabis!! Chipettes??? hahaaaa.. mcm CIPET jak.... all in all, i give this movie a 7/10 rating... bukan la ba maksud dia movie ni nda bestt.. cuma mcm jalan crita dia yg kehabisan idea suda ni ba... apa pun,bes la jgk tgkk,nda rugi duit aku rasa.. Ba,pa lagi??pg la bersiap trus pg cinema booking tiket!!! ooopppsss, kul 3am pulak ni kn.. ba,bsuk ja la k??

neway, aku dpt result ari 2 kan, punya la rasa yg s*it berabis!!! bukan jg la nda puas ati sma result aku.. ok la jgk,cuma terpikir knapa la aku malas btul mau stadi suda ni.. aiiihhhh... kalo aku stadi 2... ngeh3~mau start tambirang suda ni.... bukan apa la, tp aku rasa kalo aku stadi la kan, aku bole dapat apa ja pointer yg aku mau.. aku rasa la.. mngkn a bit over kan, tp that's just me!!! AKU YAKIN AKU BULIH BUAT!!!! tapi aku MALAS!!! huhu~lupakan ja la..haha....

Skrg aku masi lagi pening psal aku nya FYP!!! aku sgt busy sbnrnya, byk gilak mau urus.. even rmai yg suda start dgn durg pnya report, aku masi lagi terkapai2 berurusan dgn kilang n supervisor aku.. pa bole buat la kan.. tp aku masi jgk la ada masa utk berjoli2, utk kasi ilang stress la ba kan org bilang.. wpun aku ni nda fhm sbnrnya mcm mna perasaaan stress 2...

Lagi satu, aku nya cuti abis suda.. hahaaa~skrg musim baru lagi utk stadiii... aihhh..punya la kemalasan berabis aku rasa skrg ni... mungkin kalo aku stay lama skit d KK ari 2, hepi jgak la aku.. bukan mgkn, aku PASTI!!!!! rndu suda aku sma anak buah aku, parents aku, kazen mazen, aunti uncle, frenzz n kucing2 aku.. huhuhu~ pdhal aku teda kucing ni baaa.. huhuhuhu lagi la...

apa2 pun, cukup la stakat ni... mau btdur suda, bsuk mau bgn awal.. natau la dpt ka nda ni bgn.. haha~oya, mcm best pulak tulis guna bahasa gini ni ba... len kali aku tulis byk2 la lg guna bahasa macam ni.. hehe~bukan BI aku bgs mana pun.. grammar terbang huru hara ni... apa suda org besa bilang 2?? ANGKANG??? hahaha!!!
YABAH , AKU TAU JUGAK BI AKU TRUK!!!!!!hehehe~

ba,ok la arh??cukup2 la 2...gunyte all!!!!

~reFfz~

Xmas n New Year 2010!!

Usually by this time every year,i'd be preparing myself for my Aunt's annual Xmas Eve dinner in KK. But now,m sitting here in my Campus alone in my room updating my blog while FB-ing..

Nevertheless,im wishing all those celebrating Christmas a Merry Christmas and to all,a very Happy New Year 2010!!!!

Looking back at my 2009, i've had some wonderful times n some not-so-good times.. Anyway,i'm not someone who likes to look back at things..though i am a "pendendam" (dun really know the word in english,haha)..so, for those who have done me wrong, BEWARE!!! i mean it..yes,u!!!!d one reading this right now,U!!!!!LoL~

I just wish my 2010 will be a different year.. I really hope i'll be able to graduate in time..d things dat worry me much is my FYP..nonetheless,m trying my best to make things work out between me n Dr J!!!!hopefully,it will go smoothly from now on..
Looking forward to my first job..please, let me have one.. I dun wanna be a penganggur once i go out there!!!

I like to think positive though.. I believe i'll be able to prove myself!!!yeahhh, come on!!!bring it all on~ considering my age by the end of June next year, I seriously need to put some thoughts into having a real relationship..i've tried..yes,i really have... but none of it worked out... There's just no "ME" or "YOU" in a real relationship, there's only "US"!!!i know that..i really do..........need to put that into my List for 2010~

anyway,stop the itssy,bitssy,tiny things aside..we're in the mood for Xmas n New Year, let's just enjoy the moment and forget all d bad things!!!May all of you have a pleasent year ahead!!!!!!!!!!!~

peaCe~

~reFfz~

random

The days here in KK has been really enjoyable for me..i'll be returning to Penang real soon for the 2nd semester..time for some serious business there..i havent even started on my experimental FYP project..*sigh~*

hanging out in JP shisha-ing, karaoke session, watching movies, beach, lepak-ing, clubbing, showing off.....haha..d list just goes on and on..n i never had enough of all these things..i mean who would ryte?? just spending time with my budss here have made so much difference to my current state of mind..im glad i decided to came back..really~

my family members have been doing well.. ALHAMDULILLAH...m super duper happy to meet my mum and dad,siblings and relatives in KK..even my aunt and cousins from Tawau came along and make our house livelier and merrier...n my nephew, d super duper 2 years old cutie is becoming livelier every seconds..m really going to miss them all when im in Penang..

Just yesterday, me, khai, syed and yohan spend the time in khai's R35 (if u know what it is)...all that after meeting Hannah and Amy and shisha-ing in JP~showing off the car around KK was just an awesome thing to do, tho we can only do that for that one particular nyte only..haha~clubbing and driving around aimlessly while chatting among oursleves were just great..that's the first in quite a long time really we spend time together...i went back around 6am and didn't go to sleep ryte away coz need ro settle my passport problem in Mini Putrajaya~LoL.. i reached home around 2pm and went to sleep afer FB-ing~it's a long 25hours++ for me without sleep..

Supposed i'll be going to the island today with Hannah the, but i guess it won't work out since i haven't heard a word from any of them since last nyte...huhu~
kinda sick really planning things in advance...it rarely works out..maybe we should just make a plan on the spot and just do it right away..harharhar~ whatever it is, m going to have my own plan later on..need to have my getaway from the city...

m sleepy now...cudnt even think clearly now, so mind me if im writing nonsense here..weeeeeeeeeeeee~

~reFfz~

My state of mind

As my title says,i'm expressing my state of mind at d moment...But before that, kurapak dulu...

Sorry to myself for not being able to update my blog from time to time..hmmm..to tell the truth,it's not that im not able to take some time to update anything..i guess i got lazy of this blogging stuff..well,actually i've always experienced these kind of situation before..cudnt get myself to love a certain things for long..here's d list of things that can only last less than a week in my schedule..

1. Games (any type of games)

2. Accessories (ring,necklace,bangle etc.)

3. Guitar lesson

4. Study time (this one last only for 2 days max except during study weeks)

5. my savings (that's why my "tabung" always end up empty)

6. hobbies (yup,i change hobbies frm time to time)

7. etc~~~~~~~

8. girlfriend (once,it really last less than a week)


Well,dats not d end of my kurapaking though..LoL..imagined how many things i can write down here since my last post (dat was like 4 months ago)..i've been through a lot in Penang during those times..some good,some bad,some wonderful times with my besties there..

I might just as well post some random pics later on just for fun..pics from my activities in Penang..one thing i miss for sure is my PALAPES activities..i've been complaining a lot during my active times..now that i've graduated,i lost my way every weekends and don't really know what to do exactly..i miss all those yelling from our officers,all d punishments,d marching,d PT,evrything!!!!

Since im now in my last term in Penang, me and my frenz were planning lots of things..hiking,adventure,anything possible..though we only managed to go hiking once to Pulau ????????????~omg,i forgot the name....it was great though..celebrated few of my friends birthday as well..it was the first time for Z though.. yeah,Zainurul aka Z...she always complained d fact that we never celebrated her birthday with her.. haha,guess it's her luck this time of the year since we're all staying back to do our FYP!!!!

talking bout FYP!!!~*sigh*-Forget it la,no use complaining now.. (-.-)

Exam!!~*double sigh*

that's about all..in general..all d details and personal things are kept in my diary..personal diary..hehe~


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Now, back to the main topic..owh???u've had enough???just stop reading then..hehe~ i dunno when my next post will be,so have to try and fit in as much as possible in this single post...


As you people would have known,im now in KK~yeah,my beloved land below the wind...did i or did i not mentioned it??hmmm~wonder...


Just got back from my karaoke session with Amy, Hannah and Sue..d others weren't able to join us..they've got their own things working out for them...neway,i've had a great time..able to spend some time in Hannah's house with her family members..n got to know few of her cousins..if im not mistaken,she has about millions of them..is it Hannah???LoL~

as for the past few days activities in KK,i figure Amy will soon post the pics we had in her blog..i'm still searching for her blog though...haha~

i've been really happy since coming back to KK..met my family,i missed them like crazy!!!juz couldn't express it in words directly..*shy*~i know they miss me 2..huhuu..hopefully,not really sure actually..hehe

I dunno why im this happy..it seems like my problems have stopped from getting to my mind..i know it will all rise back up in a few days or so,but im happy the way it is now..i cant really say my problems here..it's not like i got all my problems in Penang, but i figured being around my family (n my besties here) and staying in KK itself have really helped me get through all that difficult times..

sometimes when im alone, i tried as much as i can to understand my own situation.. i just couldn't come up with an explanation..what's d source of my problems?what's gotten into me?why have i become what i am now?what?why?when?where?HOW?

but as i said,im happy d way i am now..so,just live my life so i dun have any regrets!!

what else i wanna write??i've got many thing to write here..but better keep in my personal diary for the time being..im outta here..


~reFfz~